the end of the novel

美好殘酷的小說背後，總是依附著一段殘酷勝過美好的真實況景。
人們遇見，然後看見，然後說話，笑了，內心也笑，亦或反感、厭惡。
愛於焉誕生，恨於焉醞釀，悔於焉潛伏。

故事的結束
不是最後一句話、最後一個字、最後一個標點。
也不是最後一抹微笑、最後一滴淚。
應當是，
創造物的終結，造物主的終結，閱讀者的終結。
-- 死亡，死亡，死亡。

於是在這個城中，太陽還是升起，太陽還是落下。
黑夜還是襲來，人們睡去。
黑夜還是褪去，人們醒來。
還是呼吸著，
呼吸...呼吸...呼吸......................................................。

Sad Song for oasis splits

2009.04.03 oasis @ Taipei

Gallagher兄弟確定拆夥的消息已經好一陣子了
雖然弟弟Liam說oasis還是會繼續下去
但是，oasis = Noel Gallagher + Liam Gallagher

似乎已經成為我心中永遠無法抹滅的記憶
老實說，我不知道自己有沒有辦法接受這樣的說法

年輕時因為Champagne Supernova深深愛上他們
“(WHAT'S THE STORY)MORNING GLORY?”這張cd也忘了重買幾次
即便到了現在已經快30的我
每當Champagne Supernova前奏的海潮聲一出現
周遭的時間空間就會回到高中那時初認識oasis的背景
─ 整天k著不知為何而讀的書，考著不知為何而考的試

當時迷戀的是弟弟，Liam

覺得他那目空一切的稚氣鼻音與誇張的行徑

總能替我那時迷惘的靈魂找到出口

上了大學，談了戀愛，受了傷
我愛上了“Don't Look Back in Anger”
愛上了哥哥，Noel
更愛上他相較於Liam低調許多的內斂性格
於是，每當Don't Look Back in Anger的鋼琴前奏一出現
又帶我回顧了大學那時愛情的美好與痛楚

現在的我，愛哥哥勝於弟弟，
在讀了又讀Noel在2009.8.28那天所發表的聲明後
心情真的沉重無比
從前常常聽到兄弟倆又開始爭吵、甚至大打出手、Noel暫時離團…
我總會笑笑的對朋友說“他們鬧著玩的啦，畢竟是血濃於水的兄弟啊~”
直到前陣子看了NME 34
“ It takes more than blood to be my brother.” Liam said
我的心沉得更深了

Sad Song
收錄在Definitely Maybe日版第六首
哥哥第一段最後唱著
We're throwing it all away
We're throwing it all away
We're throwing it all away at the end of the day
彷彿是他現在的心境般
直到歌曲走到了最後一段
他唱到
Don't throw it all away
Don't throw it all away
Don't throw it all away
Don't throw it all away
由衷期盼這是他未來的心境
因為也唯有如此
我們才有機會再次聽到 Noel 和 Liam同台的oasis

過去到今日偉大的搖滾樂手如此多，
當今才華洋溢的rock band那麼多，
但你若問我最愛的rock band是誰
無疑地，當然是oasis
but is the one with both Noel and Liam.
Definitely, no Maybe!!

[Sad Song]
Sing a sad song
In a lonely place
Try to put a word in for me
It's been so long
Since I found this place
You better put in two or three
We as people, are just walking 'round
Our heads are firmly fixed in the ground
What we don't see
Well it can't be real
What we don't touch we cannot feel
Where we're living in this town
The sun is coming up and it's going down
But it's all just the same at the end of the day
And we cheat and we lie
Nobody says it's wrong
So we don't ask why
Cause it's all just the same at the end of the day
We're throwing it all away
We're throwing it all away
We're throwing it all away at the end of the day
If you need it
Something I can give
I know I'd help you if I can
If you're honest and you say that you did
You know that I would give you my hand
Or a sad song
In a lonely place
I'll try to put a word in for you
Need a shoulder? well if that's the case
You know there's nothing I wouldn't do
Where we're living in this town
The sun is coming up and it's going down
But it's all just the same at the end of the day
When we cheat and we lie
Nobody says it's wrong
So we don't ask why
Cause it's all just the same at the end of the day
Don't throw it all away
Don't throw it all away
Don't throw it all away
Don't throw it all away
Throwing it all away
Throwing it all away
Throwing it all away
Throwing it all away
Throwing it all away
You're throwing it all away at the end of the day